I Ignored and I Won
This is a big shout out to the people who are fighting with their inner demons.
I fought with myself for over five years and I got nothing. Every day I used to cry just because I wasn't the person I wanted to be. I used to curse myself for everything bad that happened to me. I took people’s judgment so seriously that I wanted to mend my ways as they said. I got so weakened mentally that I could not help myself in getting rid of all the negativity. I was in a petrified condition and used to cry over little things. I tried my best to please people with my actions, my reactions, and my talks but all gone in vain. I tried and tried and tried. And I failed!
While questioning myself and my abilities, I started hating myself. I found myself as a pitiable living being. I found that I lost my real happiness. I started to question, God, that why He has created me? In that state of self-pity, I lost both my trust in God. I forgot that no one on this earth is created without a purpose.
Then on a very fine day, when I was a little happy because I listened to my heart for the first time, I realized that people can never be happy no matter what. I got to know that real satisfaction comes when we do something from the heart, not for others but for ourselves. I got the idea that the more we fight negativity, the more will we tire. Yes, you read that right. We do not have to fight with the negative aspects of our life. All we need is to “Ignore Them”.
After realizing the truth it felt like I am born again. A new me came to life. A more powerful and positive Girl because I started to ignore the negative vibes. Now I do not try to fight with the demons inside me, I just ignore them. I do not give them a damn. I do not listen to them telling me, “You’re so ugly”. I do not believe them when they tell me that I should have done a sacrifice for my friend’s happiness. I do not give them importance when they say; “ You could have done something more”. Why? Why I could have done something more when I did my best. Why would I sacrifice my own happiness for someone else’s?
I would not respond to these negative thoughts anymore because I want to live my life in my way. I want everyone to be happy but I will not sacrifice my own happiness for that. I would not spend my energy in pleasing the demons inside me whose sole purpose is to make me a petrified soul. I was created beautiful because I was created by the one who is most Beautiful. This Universe is beautiful because I can see the beauty in it after I got rid of my demonish thoughts. The more I dive into the positivity more I am grateful to my Creator! Now I spend all my energy in seeing and spreading positivity. And I think this is the biggest achievement for me, even more than my medals and high grades in academia.
So, people who are dealing with the same, I want to tell you that you are not alone in this. There are many people like me who are struggling to get over the negativity in them. I tried the Ignore trick and I won. You can do this too. Instead of wasting your energy in fighting negativity you can save it and consume it in spreading smiles. It can be hard at first, but not impossible.
Let us not fight the negativity inside us. Let us just ignore it. Save your energy in being positive rather than wasting it in fighting with demons.
I tried and I won. Hope you win too.
Good Luck!
